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Saturday, March 29, 2008

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 19:57:32 GMT

Ach...that space inbetween my shoulders hurt...you know the one...when you've been sitting in front of a computer too long. I've been watching youtube videos of glass harps, and harp music. I've fallen in love again with the harp. I was close to getting one once. If I do...I'm going to start off with a little one.

In other news, I've started a xanga site for swapping clothes. An idea posted on the YQForums, and so I decided to run with it, to see how things go. www.xanga.com/clothesswap is the page, and how it works is you email me the information and perhaps some pics, and I'll post it, along with sending out that email to everyone, and whomever's interested can contact the person who sent in the information.

I'm hoping this will be successful, as I know there are many times I go to give things to Goodwill, but there are some really nice clothes in there I don't want to just give away. It has nothing to do with money, that is between the interested person and the person who is giving the stuff away. I'm just hooking the two up, so to speak. :)

My meat for dinner has browned, so I need to go drain that and pour in some sauce, as well as blog on my other xanga so that I can get this thing rolling. Hopefully it will be a blessing to some people.

In other news, I've had a lot of things changing since I last blogged, since the beginning of the year even. The Lord has been good to me, putting a deeper desire for Him in, while gently correcting and teaching me along the way. I'm learning patience on a whole new level, along with trust. I also feel like I'm growing up in a way. Being more responsible, financially and such, and following through. I just pray that the Lord keeps leading me, guiding me, letting me grow in Him. I've been blessed with many friends, and the Lord has used them to help me grow in Him. I just pray that I become more responsible spiritually, and that I take the time to spend more time in prayer for my friends, as I realize more and more that I should be doing. May He continue to draw us all closer to Him! God bless you!

I'm an Aunt

Sat, 09 Feb 2008 01:56:25 GMT

For those of you who were aware, my oldest sister was pregnant. She was only 7 mo along, and started having high blood pressure problems about 2 weeks ago, and due to that, was hospitalized, then sent home on complete bed rest, went in for a check up, and then less than 24 hours later was given a C-section, and now I'm an aunt. :D I just haven't finished the quilt I was working on for him. Momma and Baby are fine.

In other news, I haven't been updating recently, and one big update I did want to do was on my trip to WYR, where I got to meet a bunch of wonderful friends that I only knew online.

For those of you who have blogged about it, or have read other blogs, there isn't much I could say that would add to the experience, except my own personal testimony, which only mirrors everyone elses. I came looking, and I went away with something. The Lord really really blessed me on that last night, and I experienced Him in a way I never knew was possible! I have sooo much to be thankful for, and I have only been experiencing a thirst for Him that I never knew existed.

Very recently, I had discovered there was a church here in Ocala FL, pastored by Bro. Joseph Underwood. I started going to Wednesday night services before WYR, and I believe that the Lord enabled that to happen for a reason. The Lord laid it on Bro Joseph's heart to start having wednesday night services again, and he didn't know why, but he said, Lord, even if it is just for one person. The first night they started having services again was the first night I came by myself. He knew that is who it was for, so I feel responsible for the church having the wednesday night services again. LOL...and it is absolutely WONDERFUL!!!! The Lord has allowed them to be such a blessing to me.

Then, I started bringing other family members on wednesday nights, as we have our own services on Sundays. Then Bro. Joseph discovered that we could sing. LOL...now we are being requested to sing at some special services he is going to be having. :D

The services were good, but it seemed like a typical wednesday night low key services. Well, two weeks ago I brought my younger brother Isaiah with me to the service. The Lord really did a work with him at WYR, and I just can't believe what has happened to him!! Well, at the service, I don't know what was going on, but the next thing I knew, we were just pulling, me, Isaiah, Bro John, and a few others, and the Lord really came down, and just was there. I've never been in a wednesday night service like that before!!! I felt like a little slice of camp was right there in that little corner building in the little plaza. It was just incredible! Well, Isaiah had asked me if the services were always like that. I said no, they weren't.

Last wednesday, I was having a hard time focusing, but I got a lot out of it still. But right towards the end, it happened again. I felt the sweet spirit of the Lord was just sitting there, just there. I just kinda stood there and worshipped and basked in His presence. I just KNEW it was Him because that is the same Spirit that was there after the services, when I'd just sit when everyone but a handful left, and me and Ruth Weber and Ruth Spencer would just sit there and pray and worship, and the Spirit was just so sweet and wonderful. Well, that is was happened that wednesday night service. Isaiah said "I thought you said it didn't happen often!" LOL..the joke was on ME!!!

But the Lord is wherever you invite Him. It would take me HOURS to just begin to tell you the works that He's done for me, in drawing me closer to Him.

He's got a long ways to go yet, before I'm complete, but as long as He keeps filling me with Him, keeps drawing me closer to Him. My focus has changed so much. What has been a blessing to me is that my radio/audio in my car no longer works. I don't have the distractions like before. Where Bro. Branham talks in "The Greatest Battle Ever Fought", the devil likes to give you distractions, and clogs up your chanels...first the outside realm, with sight, (books, TV, Videos, computer), hearing ( talking to friends, music, etc) taste, smell, feel (various examples I won't go into), and then all of the emotional realms (memory, reasoning, affections, conscious, and I'll think of the fifth one in just a minute lol), and how it affects the deep inside which would be one outlet that is controled by either faith or doubt (unbelief). When satan clogs up all the other outlets, then getting faith through is nearly impossible, and how it is like you just need to take a good scrub brush and just clean out the other chanels until there is nothing blocking God's ability to reach to the deep inside of you, to your soul.

Man, the more I talk about Him, the more excited I become. Many thanks to Ruth Spencer and Bro Trevor for putting up with me talking back and forth. I've shared so many new revelations on different things. One on love, and how God loves us, (THAT was an awesome conversation), and various other ones. It just amazes me how much the Lord has given to me, but still how much more so there is of Him to come. I'm barely scratching the surface!!! I just came to realize just last night how much more I've been in the Word and listening to the tapes just since WYR. It's more than I have been in the past previous 6 months!!! He's drawing me closer, and I love it, because I love to talk about Him, and I love His presence, because He is just so wonderful!!!

I love the Lord, for He heard my voice,

He heard my cry for mercy.

I love the Lord because He turned His ear to me.

I will call on Him as long as I live.

The Lord is Gracious and Righteous.

Our God is full of compassion

The Lord protects the simple hearted

He has become my salvation!

Hallelujah! Praise the Lord!

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Thu, 10 Jan 2008 12:43:14 GMT

Haven't been on in a while...subscribed to a few new people.

I just wish I had time here at work to describe WYR to you. For those who have already posted, you know what I mean. I don't have to. Even Bro Paul Lafontaine had said he had never seen a year like this before. The Lord had never reached me in such a way before. Never let it be said that you are too hard for the Lord, or that it is too hopeless. Just let Him take control.

Like I stated, I am at work, so I can't fully post about my experience just yet. Please keep me in your prayers right now, as I turned in my two week notice at the restaurant where I work on Tuesday, and I'm going to need the Lord's help to get me through until January 22nd. By His grace completely.

God bless you, everyone!

Thursday, January 03, 2008

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 14:14:26 GMT

Here in Philadelphia, waiting to see the sights.

I can't believe there were MEMBERS of our group who wanted to go to the Poconos instead of going to see our countries history. <dark look at Esther>

And then ice skating, and tomorrow I believe is skiing.

But I miss Florida.

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 03:22:01 GMT

Starting over from scratch, how do you rebuild?

Do you just do it? Where are all of your supports? What about the emptiness?

The despair? The uncertainties? The fears? Where do you start?

When it all comes crushing down, where do you go?

What about the past, that clings to your foot, and is drug around until it is shaken off?

What happens to life?

Is it attitude that matters?

Can you just pretend like nothing is happening?

Remove yourself emotionally, and keep working?

When do you know what you are doing is working?

Can you rebuild from tatters?

Can those tatters make a good thing again?

How can you know?

Do you want to find out?

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 02:24:36 GMT

Well, I am going to be expected to update, (which I do on a real irregular bases. I just got back from the restaurant not even but 20 minutes ago. I got everything done that I need to, and if they need something, oh well. I am SOOOOO grateful that I did go in at lunchtime to do some prep work. I had the carrot cake and the creme brulee that I was prepping, and then when I got there, I put the bread pudding on to bake, the carrot cake on to bake, the creme brulee on, made the tiramisu, put it all together. It took me about 3 hours when I got there. I wish I had had more mini mousse glasses, as then I wouldn't feel so bad about leaving them with only 8 of them.

Oh well. Vacation starts tomorrow, and I'm not worried. They have enough to get them through Thanksgiving. I am not having to deal with getting homework in on time, (like last year, I spent like 3-4 hours on THAT homework!!!) or working at the restaurant.

But Tomorrow at this time, I'm going to be chilling in Cedar Key! Goodbye cell service! Goodbye Noisy Neighbors! Goodbye City! I'm going to CEDAR KEY!!!

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 01:34:27 GMT

Well, I finally got dinner, around 8:30pm, after breakfast, (thank heavens for that!!!) and a very small lunch. (The salad dressing was bad, and I craved salad sooooo badly!) Then after going to work at the restaurant, where I didn't eat a thing (c'mon, I work at a restaurant for heaven's sake! Why didn't I eat?) so fotunately, there was leftover beef stew from a night that I wasn't home to eat it. So I had that with a piece of cornbread. That tasted soooo good.

I'm just testing out fonts here. I haven't much, because I just haven't, so I am just testing it out. Wait...I think I just said that. I wish my handwriting looked like this in real life, because then I could say that my handwriting looked like Brush Script.

Now to take my shower. Goodnight!

Friday, November 02, 2007

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 13:01:33 GMT

The weather is GORGEOUS today!!! Nice and cool and pleasant. Absolutely BEAUTIFUL!!!

And just a note...for those who see my footprints all over your site...and no comments, I can't comment on my work computer. (Yes, I do get on xanga when I am bored, which lately has been a LOT!) So, The computer will let me blog on here and on YQ Forums, but it won't let me comment on here. (I don't see why not.) So I guess that if I am on my work computer, and I see a post I really like, I will just footprint all around on it. :D

And my dad was so sweet to bring me breakfast. Here I Was this morning, dad and sis went to breakfast, leaving me here, and all I asked for was breakfast potatoes, and they brought me that and biscuits and gravy with an egg.

I won't starve now. LOL

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 12:24:13 GMT

Well, I woke up this morning, and it was raining. I love rainy days, but especially if I have cleaning to do, and there is a pleasant (cool) breeze coming in the windows. A slow evening just reading a book with it being darker outside...and there is nothing like sitting outside watching the moon (if possible) when it is dribbling, the streetlights reflecting off the black pavement, looking like those old paintings of London and Paris, the lights of the night life reflecting on the black cobblestone streets. There is a real peace in a light rain.

THere is also a real energy in a hard rain, and a real sense of security to stand inside and watch the rain pounding down, being swirled by the furious wind, and knowing you are safe and dry.

<sigh>

I love rain.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 16:51:15 GMT

Well...I can't comment on this computer, but for some reason I can blog...<scratches head>

I figured you all didn't want to wait a month to hear another update...(or would that be read?)

So here I am, sitting at my work computer, at a lull, and I am eating the Chocolate ice cream sunday from Sonic. My ring keeps slipping around on my finger because now my hands are cold, and whenever my hands get really cold, they (contract?) and my ring (Which is slightly big for that finger) slips around to where the stone is pointing down. (I hate that when I'm playing the piano and that happens, because then it is always getting in the way.) I could size the ring down, but then it just wouldn't fit right after that. I wouldn't want to get it sized down much more, because I had to take it down from a size 7 to a size 5, and after that, the stone became very loose, and I have to have a jeweler remake the prongs for the stone. (it is almost a 3 carat aquamarine, Emerald cut.) I was so scared the first time I saw the stone rocking like it was. It was a graduation present from my parents, and it is in an antique setting (from the 20's or 30's, the lady who sold it to us wasn't sure).

Anyways, ice cream all gone...but my hands are still cold. They probably will be for the rest of the day. I just won't put lotion on, because then it would like literally slip right off my finger.

I think I went over on lunch. Nothing humorous today, just me rambling.

Ta ta till next time.